irony

i need a night to stay awake
i need colours to get lost in an illusion
i need a polarized world to formulate an answer
that is what is expected out of me,
to represent a dichotomy
an aberration
a curiosity
that finally establishes a tomb
and an altar of life
that wants me dead. 

the sum

did you know happiness is a summation

a progression,

a distraction,

an obstruction,

an escape,

did you know that happiness is always at risk

but it still is an exercise, a vocation?

of asserting your own existence to your being,

the one who is lost in a quagmire of possibilities

you can't express happiness in a piece of paper

but it is tangible

seen in your actions

and the exhaustion that follows.

did you know about happiness secretly?

a secret you wouldn't let go of,

you will rather deny all knowledge,

gently laugh over the prospect

of being called a cynic

than admitting that you

have been happy

all this while.